Ok,
So I am going to blog about the results of my detox first!
Let me just say that last week was so hard, but very rewarding! Several things were tested: my patience, willpower, friendships, and inner fortitude!
I learned that it takes real people who love me to kick me in the butt and keep me going. I have to give mad props to my workout and ultimate accountability partner: Kahyla! If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't have gone to the gym 2 days last week. There were some days I wanted to punch a wall, and days that I actually punched a wall! There were days that I broke down, and spilled my most inner weaknesses with close friends. And aside from detoxing from the additives and yuckiness in processed foods...I detoxed from some people in my life that were not adding to my happiness, but keeping me from focusing on my goals!
SO: It was a very productive, and inspiring week for me!
The results are as follows: (And these are my personal results only)
Weight Lost 7lbs!
Inches Lost 12 Total!
Whoop Whoop! It was worth all of my while and struggle and persistance. I was worth it! And I am going to keep on going! I have added back regular lean proteins now, and healthy grains. I replaced fatty foods with lower-fat foods, and kicked sugar to the curb! I don't have the crazy cravings, and I allow myself one "cheat" meal a week so I don't feel so deprived. My ultimate goal is 80 lbs by 10-10-10! I will have turned 30 then, I WILL be fabulous!
Now, as for the other things going on...
Detoxing and getting healthy physically has forced me to start working on myself internally. I have found that gym time is a good time to gather my thoughts, and think about 'things'. I have learned that I am an avoider! I avoid the inevitable, including myself, and I don't like it! I try to distract myself and my thoughts by surrounding myself with people and events...and up until last Saturday...it worked. Without divulging too much information, I will just say that I got a reality slap in the face! I realized how dependent I was becoming on one certain person to make me feel like I was worth something. However, since then I realize that my worth has to come from within. My confidence can only come from me. Not someone else. It's not fair to either party involved. Especially when the other party knows you are that type of person. It adds unwanted stress to the relationship, and it never ends well. So, I have been doing a lot of thinking lately (which is partly why I haven't written anything) and have decided that I am going to become happy with just me. No dependence on anything or any one person. I will break free of this, and learn to love myself for who I really am. And while I am on that path...I am going to have a dang good time!
Again, here's to the journey....a rather long one ahead...but a journey nonetheless!
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