Monday, February 28, 2011

Get your shovels out, and get ready to start digging!

We all have it from time to time. Some of us reel with it on a daily basis, some of us obsess over it. And with some of us, our world revolves around it. Its that pesky little thing called insecurity. We would all be lying to ourselves if we said we never dealt with it, and even more if we said we weren't insecure in some way.

I deal with this insecurity probably on a daily basis...but this brings me to a important question? Where does this insecurity lie? Where does it creep up from? I find that insecurity creeps up on me in the most un-fair way. When I am dealing with personal issues, when I'm trying to achieve a goal, and even surprisingly when I feel that I am secure! So, today, as I am dealing with some insecurity, I asked myself a really important question....where in the world is this coming from? What is the real root of my insecurity?

Well, lately, I've really been trying to curb my food intake and lose weight. For myself nonetheless, but for my wedding, more especially. I almost feel like the majority of my self security lies within how I feel about how I look. Or maybe its my perception of how I look. I really don't know, and I am digging deep within myself to figure out where this is all coming from. Which is why I am writing. I mean, there is a reason this blog has the word THERAPY in it! :)

Its sad that the majority of my security lies within my personal appearance. I can blame Hollywood, or TV or social media. I can blame alot of things, actually. But I don't want to. I want to dig deeper than that. I want to find out why I feel the way I feel. Do I want to look a certain way because it will bring positive attention? Do I want to look a certain way because it will please my mate? Do I want to look a certain way because I feel like it will end all of uncertainty about a lot of things? I can't answer any of those questions right now. I'm still digging, and this is where I need the help of my readers.

So, pull of a wicker chair on my back porch, kick your feet up, and feel free to tell me your personal dealings with insecurity. How did you deal? Did you get to the root of your insecurity? What did you do to change, if you felt you needed to change at all? Who or what did you reach out to?

This is where I need you, dear readers, and I am anxious to hear back from you!

Love, and kisses to my readers!

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